Advanced delusionary schizophrenia with involuntary narcissistic rage.

The entertainment sode!!!!
Who says sode ??? I do bitch, moving on. So this is about music movies and what have you.

Music.
I love music always have it playing when I can. I'm a huge rock fan but not main stream more underground. Fav underground bands triggerpoint I can listen to the album all the way through without skipping amazing band that sadly didn't make enough money and called it quits. Other amazing bands Drykill logic , Demon Hunter, Showdown, 36crazyfists, Devildriver, Coal chamber, Killswitch engage, Nonpoint, Otep, Fear my thoughts, Machine head, Bloodsimple, Bobaflex, Rikets, Inflames, Soilwork , American head charge , Chimaria. All amazing bands so so many more just to many to list.
I think music is a gateway an escape from the real world a freedom. I think that music and movies are a form of art. It will get you through any troubles your having stuff to listen to when your happy or stuff that understands when your angry. It's music something to move to or sleep to.
Now I'm starting to open up to rap but not that lil Wayne fat John or dick Ross shit. Once again I'm opening up to a type of underground but not the typical rap. It's pandora that has this group together I don't know the listing type tho but it's some of the most chill music you can listen to. Not that shit that tells you to move or those fucks that say how thier life is better then everyone elses. The groups I listen to MF Doom and all his side projects from madvillians to danger doom. I like him because it's chill everyday music he talks about storys in his music or getting high ehh and just funny stuff. So he is a huge part of the rap I do listen to from time to time. So MF Doom , madvillians , jurassic 5 , chicharones , atmosphere , danger doom , mos def , Gym class heros , hieroglyphics. So yes all chill relax music to listen to.

Movies
well now I love movies. I mean who doesn't ? And if you know from the title of this blog I like comedys ( from me myself and Irene ) so yes love that movie but what is amazing is The Big Lebowski. One of the best films of all time that I can quote in and out. That and blues brothers , American psycho. Best movies ever and I love to quote. And love so many others pineapple express , inglorious bastards , any Eli Roth or Tarantino movies!!! Amazing ... But running out of time.

That's a little insight into the mind of me an my thoughts.
Peace.

Rough around the edges

Due to lack of sleep from the past week I have been struggling at work and been feeling like shit but it's life it happens and move on.

I don't know why I'm even writing this guess it's move of a note then a blog since only one person reads this if that. So with the situation at hand. Being called out in front of friends appently doing everything wrong. I don't do this correct I don't do that at all. I need to do this I should do that. That is all I'm getting is things I need to do. When all I asked was one thing no bull shit and I am still getting it.

Something was started AFTER knowing how I am and then getting told I need to change the way I am. I don't know it confuses me and so much other.
The usage of shit agaist me is getting old.

Then theirs the not talking but doing the teasers shit on facebook I don't know if your tryin to make me jealous or what.

I don't fucking know anymore I'm over tired over thinking and over cooked

I'm lost in my own head.

Well shit the bed

It's been a bit.

Lately I have been feeling like I don't fit in or I don't belong. Been feeling like that basically everywhere even my own home. It's a shitty feeling and I'm not sure why I am getting it. Maybe I'm wrong or maybe idk maybe I don't fit in. It's hard when you barely feel welcome at home. Might get better if I start to spend more time at home.

Took a trip to Clearwater over the holiday weekend spent time with old friends and family. It was alright but I would have been better if it was a shorter visit. Can only handle mike in short periods. Him bossing apperently only me around. Being a control freak and just being an ass. It will be a while before I visit again.

In other news I'm no longer single. Tho don't know why I'm even writing it cause she is the only one that reads this and I'm pretty sure she knows. Hello trouble.

Anyway I'm drawing a blank right now so not sure what else to write. I guess that's just a short update on my life.