Subject to change

Money doesn't buy happyness? My ass I doesn't it buys you cars, toys, a home, food, liquor, and in some places, If you wanna break the law, a woman for a night or a bride from Russia. So yes money does buy happyness and if you dissagree sorry.

So I now finally have money in my life I can breath easy I can smile and hopefully get out of this hole. Cashed out my 401k so that gave me a chunk to pay bills and I just got my first check from universal , which I got yesterday and still havnt checked it. I can stop worrying. Jesus it is such a good feeling.

I feel like I am a nomad out here in Orlando living out. Of friends houses and my car but it's a alot of gas money going back home and I was broke but now I'm good so I might go home more offen who knows? It's good and bad tho doing what I'm doing hanging out bein close with my friends again but it seems when ever any of us hang out we couldn't seem to be farther away from eachother for everyone. Not talking or just arguing idk maybe since I was gone they see how much I'm not wanted ... Another who knows. I will still try to stay in a good mood tho.

Excited about this weekend tho very excited. Going to a party at Danelle's house ( a fellow spring hillian I went to school with back in the day) gonna hang out with her some of her friends some other Orlando spring hellians aswell and some people coming from spring hill to think she said old high school friends Joanna Stacy and maybe steve are showin up. Gonna be awesome.

So for the most part I'm actually doing ok. Few things I need to unwrap my head around and derack the brain. Something that has been going on for a bit now and I need to stop doing the same old shit I do and just let it go. Easier said then done tho. It's cause to many problems drama and shit. I just idk hat to do. Need to think more about it. Gonna have to do something cause these feeling are the same old feelings and can't be goin there again.

And I'm fallin asleep writing this cause I just got off work.

In the end I'm happy actually happy and maybe going into my norm cheer person sometime in the future.. Have money and money buys endless happyness. And head thinking. I'm gonna drink apple juice my only real loveable fruit . And listen to my good tunes